If you’ve been reading this blog for awhile, you’ve noticed that not every entry is about me and Leuk. That’s because I keep my spirits up by not focusing on him every single day.
But those posts about my regular life – the ones marked “Just Me” – still qualify for this blog. Two reasons for that: (1) It’s my journal and I can write anything I care to, and, (2) Leuk is always with me; always in the background of my thoughts. He’s become a part of my life – like brushing your teeth, or eating dinner, or jogging (oh yeah.. exercise… don’t look at my exercise page. I’ve missed a few days!).
Those, of course, are mundane things. Leuk is far from mundane. He’s more like a heavy, daily burden. Eiher way, breakfast or leukemia, its something you know you need to deal with each day. You don’t always think about it, but you know it’s there; a task needing attention.
I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone out there, but it does in here. In me.
That doesn’t mean I’m an ostrich with my head in the sand. (By the way, do they actually do that?) I read about my condition and keep notes of questions I’ll have for my next doctor’s appointment. Leuk deserves just enough attention for me to be prepared, but he will never earn the right to bamboozle me. (Now that’s a great word… bamboozle… sounds like what you’d call Bambi when he’s closed down the bar.)
Well, those are my thoughts for today. Leuk is always lurking there among the synapses of my mind; I just don’t always give him time to play.