I came across Kay’s Leukemia Blog yesterday that a family had been keeping about their little girl’s progress. There was one last post. Kay, their beautiful 9 year-old daughter died from Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL).
She first contracted it when she was 22 months old.
I’m 61 years old and have CLL – a much milder form of leukemia.
So why her? Why a child who had so many years ahead of her? And why ALL?
My Leuk has many brothers a lot meaner than him. “Acute” versions are so deadly. So threatening.
Why must his more aggressive brothers attack children? Where’s the sense in it?
Why does God allow such a thing. Or maybe the real question should be is there a God at all?
Are we just dust in the wind, our lives blown away by an unknowing, unthinking gale?
So why this little girl? The standard answer is that God has his plan and we can’t always understand it. He is so Omnipotent, so All-knowing, that we must believe He knows what He is doing. There are things we can’t possibly understand so we must have faith in Him.
Or are we just letting Him off the hook with all that? Do we dare ask why, and in doing so lose our faith, our beliefs? It is said that living without God is like a ship without a rudder; we are blown by the wind with no ability to steer against it.
Maybe there never was a rudder. Maybe the wind is blowing us haphazardly and we just keep trimming the sails thinking He is guiding us; when all the while only the wind determines our course.
Where is He in all this? Where was He for little Kay?