I have a person in my life, someone important to me, who is angry with me. I found this out in a terse text message from him saying “never contact me again”.
His anger was born from a misunderstanding of the facts. I want so much to clear the air between us. I would like him to know the truth about what happened and how I tried to make things work properly but was thwarted in my attempts by someone else.
I’ve tried to make contact but his text message put an end to that.
I believe I have many years yet before Leuk takes me and I hope that time will give opportunity for reconciliation.
Having a life threatening disease makes you focus on what really matters. For now, for me, I need peace and less stress. I wish I could take away his anger but I can’t control him or anyone else for that matter.
So I love him from a distance and focus on my immediate family: my wife, children and their spouses, and my grandchildren. There is so much love to nest in here. I thrive with them.
It would be sad if I die without seeing him. If that happens, though, I want him to know I understand his feelings and I really did mean him no harm. I forgive him and I hope he will forgive me.
If you have leukemia try your best to make repairs to damaged relationships. But if you can’t, don’t let the stress eat at you. Love them and move on. But never forget the good times and what that person means to you. Because getting right down to it, love is what matters.
When I kick the bucket I want to go out the right way, the only way: with love.